September 17 2004
Everything is different now.
I left him, for good.
I told him to leave me alone, forever. He was sucking me dry and I do not want him taking any more from me. I have taken back everything he stole from me and left him being the empty one for a change. He hates it. I know he will lash out at me at some point, he will tell anyone who will listen how I ruined his life so they will take pity and give him the sympathy he needs to feed upon.
It's over. I am renewed and rejoicing.
The world seems so much brighter and less depressing. Hell, I think I lost a bunch of weight overnight. I certainly feel lighter. I am bouncing off clouds.
Ever since we moved to the city, I could feel this change coming. Opportunities abound. There is now nothing holding me back from achieving my dreams... Except I'm not sure what my dreams are, yet. It's not always easy to think about what I want because I can all too easily feel the dreams of everyone else riding away on waves of helplessness. I don't know where to begin, but then again, I suppose I have taken the first step by taking my own power back. I am surrounded by good friends and good spirits now, and that is what matters most at this time. I can work on the rest later - It's time for a vacation.